The Brave One

The Brave one- This boy child of mine

This boy had blood work done today a few days ago, to test why he won’t put on any weight. He sat in my lap and I snuggled him, while he played with his car. I whispered in his ear that it would hurt, but he had to be brave

I asked the Phlebotomist if he would hurt? If he would cry? She said yes. I hate needles and blood. When she stuck it in his teeny tiny vein in his inner elbow, I couldn’t bear to look. I closed my eyes and waited for him to cry. I was on the verge of tears myself, dealing with the thought of my baby being in pain.  I was failing him, Thats why we were here, getting blood work done on a 22month old

Just like breastfeeding before, I was failing motherhood. I could not do the basics- feed my son

There was no sound. He did not cry. He did not whimper, just looked slightly annoyed, that it was taking so long.

She pulled the needle out and told me it was over. I took a quick peek at the syringe, it was big and dark red.

The phlebotomist said  “He is a tough one”

This Brave boy of mine.

2 thoughts on “The Brave One

  1. Isn’t it crazy that if one thing doesn’t work out we feel like failures as mothers? Forget that Avi is sweet and smart and funny and loving and PERFECT. Not being able to breast feed and having a tricky time getting a picky eater to eat does not make you a failure. Makes you stronger. Keep us updated.

  2. Such a brave boy, not a tear! My son had blood work at 12 months, but that was routine, I’m glad you didn’t have to do that one. It was so hard to hold a 12 month old, and boy oh boy did he cry! They did both arms. 😦

    Not being a breastfeeding champ does not make you failure, it just doesn’t work for everyone. And, it takes two to breastfeed, it just wasn’t your/his thing, no biggie! There’s too much pressure re: breastfeeding, in my opinion. You’re an awesome mama!

    Praying your results come back just fine 😉

    xo

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